I am mindful of my breath, breathing in and breathing out.
Slow, fast, deep in the navel or raising from the abdomen.
It is telling me how I am feeling today.
Thoughts pass by like motocycles on the highway
Some of them louder than others
Same stories, same people, same feelings over and over but moving.
I love when a old friend comes, the memory of a place or a moment that I enjoyed.
It’s not always beautiful, it can be the image of a bad dream… but Iet it be, far from judgment.
Then finally it’s quiet.
The mind is ready to receive, the door of the palace is wide open.
Body is no limitation anymore, mind expands, the universe responds.
A feeling of calmness and infinity.
I want to stay there forever, explore the colors, the sounds and the sensations.
There is no sun, moon, stars or planets, only warm lights dancing.
I won’t open my eyes.
Pure nothingness arise.
Power of life can be felt.
I’ve been in a Wat Pa Tam Mwa Forest Monastery (Meong Son) for 7 days, meditating with the monks in their peaceful paradise. Imagine a luxury resort but everyone dressed up in white, eating vegetarian food, in bed by 10pm and awake at 5am every day. During sitting meditation, Men are in front, women behind.
« no touching or no massage » is part of the guide of conduct of the monastery.
So here I am, enjoying the beauty of Vipassana with people from pretty much everywhere around the world. I feel i know the teacher since forever. The master is always laughing, his hobby is to watch foreigners and guess what animal they were in their past incarnations.
Satipatthana is the Buddha’s most systematic explanation of the practice of mind training for realization of truth. It has complex guidelines. In the temple they teach us the basic first step of meditation, which is already quite a challenge, it’s called anapanasati-bhavana, the cultivation of mindfulness with breathing. Understanding and getting to know our breathing, which can change from long to short, fast or slow helps gaining mastering over the body and the mind. If our breathing is calm, the body will be likewise which leads to happiness and joy. « I will meditate diligently. May tranquility grow in my mind to bear the fruit of insight and wisdom. Now I will breathe mindfully. Breathing in, I will be mindful, breathing out I will be mindful. Breathing in I will say to myself ‘BUD’, breathing out I will say to myself ‘DHO’». BUD DHO means the enlightened one.
I am doing my best and every day I feel more space in my head, like if the clouds where fading away. The stories rarely stop but I get to watch them and mindfully let them be, not judging them... the medicine here is to look at the thoughts and just don’t care, as if I was going to die the following second and it was my last breath.
The magic of this work is that on the other hand, everything that's in the matrix becomes important, every little detail of life is the entire universe. Flowers are more beautiful that they were before, only because now I truly observe them. I move around the place slowly enjoying each of my steps, trying to avoid the eyes of my friend Ronaldo who makes me laugh so much, that’s probably the hardest part!